Sunday, November 11, 2018

I just don't know how

Starting with a one mile walk with Ellie Friday evening I've had a 17 mile weekend.  Got in 5 in the 'hood yesterday morning and 10 downtown with Mark L this morning and another one mile walk with Ellie this evening.  Surprisingly enough we took no walk breaks until I bailed at the 8 mile mark to pee and take it in easy.  My time including a cool down walk across the footbridge was 2:04.  Pretty unbelievable.  I had no idea I had that in me today. 

I haven't been doing much running at all since my life went in the toilet 2 months ago.  During the week I'm pretty well okay but the weekends are rough.  I was in pretty good spirits Friday evening coming into the weekend and actually had my best nights sleep in quite some time.  I kept pretty busy yesterday with errands and shopping but by this afternoon I'm sad and lonely and feeling pretty fucking gloomy.  The unbelievable reality rears it's head and roars.  I just don't know how I'm going to do this...

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