gals

I had a great first run back after my ankle mishap 11 days ago.  Diana and Shan and I had a great 7 miles yesterday morning.  I didn't really know what to expect in regards to my ankle or my fitness.  I was really happy with the 1:18:42 we ran especially because I did a bunch of talking.  I definitely paid the price for that in the last mile.  Shan realized I was dropping back and told me there would be no walking now!! Great times with 2 great gals!!

gone

the void is still alive
the vacuum is still kicking
my heart's hole has not scabbed over
I suppose it may never
will it be easier to bear
in the future
I can't say
we all want to be
remembered
the clock never stops ticking
we will all be gone
someday

oh well

Not sure what to say about this mornings run.  Should I be my usual emotional, shoot from the hip self and let it all hang out or should I take a step back and chill?

We'll go with this;

This mornings run was just "M" and I.  How about that for starting nicely??  We start slowly warming up the 1st mile with the usual small talk.  I mention that our floor D-Day is nearly here and mention some of the things we have to do to finish getting ready.  One of those is the baseboards in our house.  It would be crazy to replace all the flooring and NOT upgrade the baseboards.  So, the right idea is in place but is plan to get it all done correct?

Well, according to M is not!

After M thoroughly went over how I'm doing things in the wrong order I bluntly told him, "oh well, that's the way it's going to be, AND, I'm out here on a Thursday morning for recreation and stress relief, NOT to be adding stress to my life"!!!

the ghost

incessant ringing
never seeming to stop
everything is personal
all alone on an island
at the darkest moment a commitment is recalled
to run
and run we did
and did and did
the ever familiar sweat and banter
the rocks, dirt and trees
always there for us
and the ever present ghost

time on feet

Sam and I had a really good 7 mile run at Barton Creek from the HOL.  Our time was 1:40ish.  Pretty slow but we had a great time and that's all that really matters.  Sam was still recovering from a great 50 mile the previous Saturday and I just needed some decent time on feet.

conversation

We had most of the crew for the Thursday morning run today.  Diana and Mark made it along with Shan and I.  We had our usual good conversation and plenty of laughs.   It's interesting how we all circulate around with our conversation especially if we haven't seen one person in a while.  I found myself talking with Diana and as we are talking I realize it's been several months since I've seen her and immediately there is more to talk about.  We talked about the new catitat, and the possibility of Freddie being gay and if cats can be gay or not and other cool stuff like that.  We engage in some very deep conversations some Thursday mornings!!

miles

Got in a 6 miler Friday morning in the neighborhood before we headed to Kerrville for the weekend and did the 7 mile loop at LBL yesterday after work.

Even though my running miles have been off I've been pretty steady with my crunches and push ups and that will serve me well when I can start to build up my mileage again.

time will tell

I've got to get myself in gear if I'm going to continue to be a runner.  I've averaged 52 miles per month the last 3 months.  Not so good.  I figured up my weekly average since 6/1/98 (date when I quit smoking).  I'm down to 20.4 miles per week in the time.  My average mileage has been steadily decreasing the last 4yrs with all the family shit going on.  I suppose a lot of people would be pretty happy with the miles I've done the last almost 15yrs but I just see the 4yr decline and wonder if I can pull it back together.  My longtime goal has been to maintain the 20 miles per week for 20yrs.  That's 5yrs and 3 months from now.  Time will tell