pee

Got in another half mile for my little kid to get in one more pee before I left for work.

Ellie

Chilly early morning one mile walk with Ellie.

bleak future

2 mile walk with Ellie this morning.  Looks as if my walks with Ellie are going to be the only light in an otherwise bleak future.  I don't like my new life and I can't ever see liking it.  I think I've always known that somehow I'd end up alone. Seems like I was destined for this from the start.   Maybe I subconsciously set it up that way, who knows.  I'm in it now though so I guess I'll see what tomorrow brings.  Most likely the same loneliness and sadness I'm feeling today.....

Ellie

Cold walks with Ellie the last 2 mornings!!

cold, gloomy

One mile walk with Ellie on a cold, gloomy, wet morning.  I may as well be living in apartment when it comes to her and going outside.  She's such a headcase she doesn't like to go in the backyard without me going with her so I guess it's going to be lots of neighborhood walks unless the weather is really bad.  I don't mind.  It's something to do for a few minutes besides sit around being lonely.... 

I just don't know how

Starting with a one mile walk with Ellie Friday evening I've had a 17 mile weekend.  Got in 5 in the 'hood yesterday morning and 10 downtown with Mark L this morning and another one mile walk with Ellie this evening.  Surprisingly enough we took no walk breaks until I bailed at the 8 mile mark to pee and take it in easy.  My time including a cool down walk across the footbridge was 2:04.  Pretty unbelievable.  I had no idea I had that in me today. 

I haven't been doing much running at all since my life went in the toilet 2 months ago.  During the week I'm pretty well okay but the weekends are rough.  I was in pretty good spirits Friday evening coming into the weekend and actually had my best nights sleep in quite some time.  I kept pretty busy yesterday with errands and shopping but by this afternoon I'm sad and lonely and feeling pretty fucking gloomy.  The unbelievable reality rears it's head and roars.  I just don't know how I'm going to do this...

Ellie

Early morning 2 mile walk with Ellie!!

Ellie

Walked 2 miles with Ellie today.  One in the morning and one in the afternoon.